I’ll disappear for awhile… soon…

Just another day in the life of the average university student… who’s wishing for an escape… Continue reading

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In an attempt to make a note of my annoyance…

So I’ve been back for 4 days now and it feels like I never went on break, just like usual. I don’t like that I so easily step back into the rhythm of my university lifestyle, sometimes, but then I guess it’s also a good thing and all that jazz.

Not that it doesn’t stop me wishing it was summer. I was really looking forward to summer, but now I’m not so sure, my plans aren’t quite going to plan and my friends keep changing the date of when we’re meant to be going away, for one reasons or another, the most recent of which is that one of them will ‘only’ have 2 days between going away and then going away with us, honestly I don’t really see how that’s a probably. I went out boating with them, when I had been up partying the night before and had a hangover, so I think she should be able to manage, but I don’t want to be a bitch or anything by saying this. Also I’m a little annoyed, because they were super against changing the date when one of our other friends wanted to and the one that wants to change it now, was quite mean and rude to her, basically implying that she shouldn’t be allowed to come if she couldn’t do those dates and now she’s made us change the dates twice, so I’m a little pissed at her. So I’ve been ignoring them mostly, I’m also doing that because I feel like their not the friends I thought they were, for other reasons as well and it’s making me a bit sad and what not.

But I’ve been reoccupying myself with other things, such as my new eleaf or istick, whichever you want to call it, which came the other day, a little earlier than expected, but I don’t mind that, now I’ve just got to wait for my new atomizer, as I’m having to use my older ones and I don’t think they can really keep up with the power of the istick, so I’m hoping it arrives tomorrow or Friday.

I’ve also been planning or trying to plan a trip to Nando’s – because it’s in another city, there apparently isn’t one in Bournemouth – with some of my friends, we were meant to be going tomorrow, but there were some scheduling problems, so it looks like we’ll be going Friday night – fun Friday night, at Nando’s.

I’ve also been using all these things, as reasons not to finish doing my assignments during this week and I’ve got 2 test to revise for and then of course my exams that are next month – only 5 more weeks, not including this week and I’ve finish first year.

Quote/saying of the day: Selfish persons are incapable of loving others, but they are not capable of loving themselves either. – Erich Fromm

So I’ve been watching that new Marvel series DareDevil. I watched the film that came out quite a while ago and honestly I didn’t think it was any good, I mean I don’t particularly think the acting was bad or anything like that, but I just didn’t like it. But I went ahead and watched this new series. Although I did like the coffin water bed thing that DareDevil had in the film, that was interesting, in this series he just has silk sheets, kinda boring in comparison, but hey ho the bed isn’t the most important thing about this. So I’ve got to the second to last episode of the series, because I have been sort of serial watching it a little and so far I think it’s actually quite good. I mean it’s kind of refreshing that he’s not just this super amazing sort of unbeatable anti-hero in this one and he does actually get hurt – quite seriously at some points – it makes him more… human.

Now in all honestly I haven’t read the comic, although it’s on my list – one day I’ll get round to actually reading all the comic I’ve got on my list – so I can’t say if it’s true to them or not, although the bad-ass woman, Electra I think her name is, but I can’t be sure and I can’t be bother to look it up – so sorry if I got it wrong – is so far not in the series, or at least I haven’t noticed her, so I’m not sure if she’ll ever feature in this series.

Oh and I also like that we get to see where/how he gets his DareDevil costume from is interesting in this series, in the film he already had it – it might have said where/how he got it, but it’s been a while since I watched it, so I’m not sure.

On the bus in the eye of the storm

Sometimes I feel like fate is sitting on my shoulder whispering encouragement in my ear, just so it can smash me back down again. Recently things have been going, well not the best but a hell of a lot better, even the several medical things seem to be less of a problem. And I was starting to think, oh maybe that things would be all great. Well at least that the sky would stay blue, but in spite of this optimism the sky turned grey and the storm began. Now at the moment I feel slightly like I’m sitting in the eye of the storm, watching the world get torn apart and just sitting waiting for it to be my turn.

(My life is like the end of the Italian Job, the original/ good version) – haven’t seen it, go watch it right NOW!

Any ways so today wasn’t the best of days as you might be able to tell from my paragraph of metaphors and tomorrow isn’t looking to be a bundle of joy either. I just sort of feel like I’m going back in time and things are all getting bad again and to be honest most people are being kind of selfish, so I’m being selfish. I know that’s not really the way to handle things, but at the moment I just can’t be bothered to be bothered. Maybe that’s harsh and maybe I should be there more for people, but I don’t want to go back to being ‘trying to be there for everyone and ending up feeling like a have no one at all in the world’. They were dark times for me and I’m happy to have shaken them off – mainly – so I hope you get why I wouldn’t want to go back, so the sake of saving someone from themselves or perhaps each other, when they could actually work it out without me. Not that I’m saying that I don’t care at all and if someone asks I will decline and I don’t want to be excluded so much that at the end of it, I’m just sitting on the outside looking in the rain spattered window – if you get what I’m saying – I just don’t want to take too much of an active role in the whole thing, just to have it blow up in my face, that’s all and as I said it maybe really selfish, but I’ve got time to repent of such things, but you grow older by the second, we’re not young forever, now are we.

Speaking of forever, I’m still trying to devise a plan that will enable me to live forever and I think I’ve cracked the surface of it. I’m not saying that there is complete certainty, but I think I’m on the right track, or I’m staring at the right track, trying to work out if it’s the right track. But that’s not the point the point is that I’m going to live forever and ever and ever and never – hopefully – die. Although I will grow old and probably get some nasty disease and spend a large amount of time thinking about my youth, just as I’m sure, many other older people, like I will be, do. Not that I’m saying that’s all elderly people do. I mean a lot of them are just as active as we youngster, maybe actually even more, than a lot of youngsters. I mean my Grandma used to do a lot more exercise than me, but at the moment she can’t because of her knee, being all banged up. But we’re all hoping she get’s better soon.

I just heard this song yesterday and I haven’t heard it in a while, so yeah… here it is. Plus it’s sort of lightens the whole post up a bit – doesn’t it?