No stress in Spain…

Just another day in the life of the average University Graduate… Continue reading


By the end of the day…

Just another weekend in the life of the average University graduate… who’s hoping for the future… Continue reading

But why a spoon? Because it will hurt more…

Just another day in the life of the avaerage university student, who’s just that stupid… Continue reading

The days that were away…

So this is basically a week in the life of the average university student… on holiday… Continue reading

Finding a hammer to make a dent in my desire…

So yesterday was my friends birthday and he invited me and some other people to go for Japanese food with him, at a restaurant down – quite a way down – the road. Unfortunately one of our mutual friend couldn’t make it because she spent all her money on going to Asylum 14 this weekend. Honestly I’ve never really fan girl-ed enough over something, to want to spent thousands of pounds on it, but she really loves supernatural, so yeah…

Any ways, I’ve never had Japanese food before, so it was a new experience for me and I really enjoyed it, I tried octopus for the first time, in these balls that I can’t remember the name of right now and that was good and I learned – more or less- how to eat rice with chopsticks. I think I did quite well considering I’m not particularly good with chopsticks.

Any ways so after walking back to his place we hung out there for a while, with a friend of one of my other friends that lives in the same house and found out the cheapest ways to fly to Europe right now, which just made me want to go travelling even more and I worked out that I would have to save £7000-9000 for the next two years if I want to go to all the places I want to go to, plus any little trips I might plan. because I think that might be a good idea. So all this money is going to have to come from somewhere, hence my continued job search, now I’m thinking about trying pet sitting, because I found one that pays £13-30, so I’m going to look into that and some other places, plus I’m still doing the survey and product testing now and hopefully that will work out, although history is against me, I’m also thinking about trying to sell my University notes and what not on this website I’ve found, I mean after I’m finished my exams and what not, so that I can just go though everything and make some nice ones and hopefully make a little off of that, I mean ever little bit gets me closer, so I won’t be turning down money at any point, however I worked out I’m probably going to spend £300+ this summer, if everything goes as planned, so I need to make at least £600 to be really making a profit here, but I’ve got 3-4 months to this and then also look for a job here to do and I’m thinking about trying to see if there is any vacancies in the post office, because my friend worked there for a while and said that it was horrible soul sucking work, but it paid well, so I see abut that.,

Any ways, so my friends parents came down, well they were on their way to Cornwall and thought it would be nice to drop in on his birthday to give him his presents.

Then once they had left we watched Divergent, we were going to watch Insurgent, but he hadn’t see Divergent and I’m a bit of a stickler about watching things in order, I refuse to start watching a series even 1 or two episodes in, which is why I ended up not watching the second season of shield and still haven’t got round to that, then one of our friends made dinner, which was delicious, but because I tend to eat small portions these days, by half way through desert I started to feel a little sick, so I had to stop to my regret, because she made banana desert, which apparently was meant to be harder, but came out a little like soup, although it was still tasty, just didn’t look as good as it could have.

And after dinner we played Zelda Monopoly, because that was one of the presents he got – making me mighty jealous, because I love Zelda. By the end of the game it was 3:30 in the morning and me and one other of our friends, were the only ones still in the game, in the end I lost to her because I kept landing on her properties with Deku trees on – or in normal Monopoly, hotels. But it was a fun game and the way they did it was nice, although it did remind me that I can’t get the new Zelda game, because I don’t have a wii-U and with my lack of money I don’t think I’ll be getting one any time soon, unless I ask for it for Christmas and nothing else, although it might no even be out by then, since it’s been pushed back and all. Although there is the new(ish) Majora’s mask for 3ds.

I did get the original version on the wii, but I never really got into it. The time limit for me, made it harder to get into I think, but then again now I can only play it when I go home, but if I got it on 3ds I could play it whenever – maybe I be able to get into it more, if I was using it to procrastinate.

So yesterday confirmed a fear I’ve had for a while now, the problem with my eye has come back and I’m not sure who I go to about it, since I used to get to the hospital back home, so I’m going to try and get an appointment with the GP here and see if he can give me something for it, because the meds I had last time worked well and got rid of it – well sort of did – so I’m hoping I can get all this over and done with before my next test, which is Monday, well I’ve got one tomorrow as well, but I can’t get an appointment until tomorrow, so yeah…

These past days just seem to have to been unlucky ones for me, my eye problem came back, my ebay account got suspended and I’m seriously stressing about exams (etc). Maybe all the stress drought the eye problem back faster or something I dunno.

Quote/saying of the day: I was always lucky in my bad luck -Bohumil Hrabal

From Leaving Elpis to Going Steady

So I made a sort of frame for my white board, or rather piece of plastic and started on story ideas. I was going to write this piece based on Pandora’s box, – called Leaving Elpis, which may not make much sense to you, but in relation to the story it does – well it was more like the world after Pandora’s box and the story was about the things that came out of it – if that even makes sense – but I was showing my brother and he just picked it apart until I no longer felt like I could write a good story and so I’m putting that idea on the back burner, until I can work all the kinks out. So Instead I’m not working on this one about this girl for cuts herself, gets addicted to drugs, becomes a prostitute to fund her drug addiction, then becomes a rich man’s mistress and a burlesque/host in his club, oh I almost forgot before that she get’s sold to basically my own version of that places Mafia. I’m not sure where the story is going to go from there, but I think I’m going to make her have a moral dilemma about staying with the rich guy, because he has a wife and kids and she meets them, by accident and she’s off the drugs at this point, because the rich guy got her off of them, for selfish reasons though – I thought I should point that out, I’m not going to portray him as a good guy really. But I know by the end of the book, she is going to be clean and sober and working in a cafe in this tiny town off of some big motorway in the desert or something like that, because that’s where the story begins, but I’m not sure how I want to get her there, whether I want her to get stop herself cutting by herself, or if someone will help her, because throughout everything she’s still cutting.

But that’s the idea for now, basically until I let my brother see it I think, but I think I could do the story justice, since I have quite a bit of knowledge on quite a few of the subjects and no shortage on material for the others. But I’m calling it ‘Going Steady’ for now, but I have a feeling that I’m most likely going to change the name pretty soon.

Silencing my dreams to sit in the corner

So as it turns out I didn’t end up having my dentist appointment, as the dentist wasn’t in, because his wife was having her baby – so congratulations to them and all that jazz. But I rescheduled for Monday, although that might have to be rescheduled as well, because of the baby.

But today wasn’t really all that much of an interesting day or anything, although I did do a little work on what I am now calling ‘The escape’, but I still haven’t really worked things out properly yet. I’m also looking to get my drivers license – yay! I wasn’t sure if I was going to bother, but now I think it might be the right thing to do, but I’ll just have to wait and see.

I’m hoping that tomorrow I can get things moving, not on the escaping front, but on something else that I’m working on at the moment, although oblivious of it up until recently, I want to conduct my own investigation to find out more, before I reach my verdict.

But on to more interesting and wildly despairing things, such as my future. I know now that the path I’ve been intending to follow, is very hard, much harder than I had first thought, but there’s still a part of me that wants to try and follow it, although I also want to do something else. I’ve always been interesting in beauty and I want to pursue that, styling to be honest, but then there isn’t that big of a market for that kind of thing that someone can just jump into it, with little to no preparation. I used to want to be personal stylist, but then who wants one of them in this sort of time, was the thought that helped to drive me away from that, then a nail artist, I used to do my mothers nails and hoped to graduate to earning from it when I was older, but that got drowning in the shadow of wanting to become an author and so didn’t see much of the light of day. I’ve always loved making others look beautiful, hair, nails, make-up, clothing, that’s what I want to do, but then I don’t think I’m that good at it and there aren’t that many people in my life that need styling in that way, so there isn’t much practice to be had, although I still know what’s trending and seem to be able to know what’s going to become popular before it does, although most of time I don’t really realise that I have worked it out, before everyone else. I also felt that my lack of personal beauty would hinder me in this line of work, because I always thought of people that worked in this line would look beautiful and so attract people to ‘want to look like them’ or something like that.

So since I believed or do believe the dream to be impossible, I put it to bed and try not to think about it. Although it’s still there at the back of my head, but my friends have gotten over dressing each other up and all that jazz, so just sitting in the corner or something – have no idea where that one was going.