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Spending Time…

So its been a little while since I last posted and quite a bit has happened since then, but honest I can’t really be bothered to go through all that so I’ll just do the highlights or something along those lines.

So I went to the fresher’s fair with my now good friend – yep I’ve made one of them at least – and met someone who lives in a uni-let like her. So by the time we headed to Dylan’s the uni bar/restaurant, our new favourite place to hang out and grab lunch, I had potentially – meaning I signed up for emails from – 8 different societies/clubs. There was; Disney, Whovian, Harry Potter, horse riding, RAG, archery and pole dancing. Though I’m not going to do horse riding, since it’s rather expensive and all that jazz and I missed the first Whovian one, because it was at the same time as Harry Potter, where I got sorted into Slitherine – yay, who didn’t see that coming?

The Disney society seemed fun and the first one we watched the lion king, a film I haven’t seen in a while, so that was nice. I also saw this guy with a Zelda hat, which I then wanted to steal, but didn’t – obviously.

So this week has been more academic, as we have actually been having lesson/lectures on more than just what the topic is about and all that jazz. Although it has meant getting up early for nine o’clock lectures three days, although I do get Tuesday off!

So last night my housemate, who has taken to calling me beautiful and darling instead of my name – still not sure how I feel about that – took me out drinking, meaning he paid for my drinks – always up for free drinks – at the karaoke night, at his workplace Dylan’s. It was nice hanging out, although slightly awkward at first, but I found out I think I like gin, as I got this cocktail called Garden of Eden,which has Gin in it, but it was a cocktail, so it may have been that I actually couldn’t taste the gin at all. I did see a couple people I new on the way out of the bar, including Mr nice guy and his house mate, who I’ve taken to calling Bilbo in my head, don’t think he would remember why, if I called him that to his face.

So as my new good friend had got 241 voucher for pizza express, we decided it would be a good idea to go there for dinner this evening, but first I had to get the bus, with my new bus pass. I almost didn’t get off at the right stop, but fortunately I did and then had to get another bus into town, I have to take 2 buses to get into the town centre, if I don’t want to have to pay and since I’ve got a bus pass I think it’s a waste of money in more ways than one. Yeah so any ways, before pizza, she showed me where Primark was – that being the most important shop on the high street. And although I didn’t intend to I bought some stuff. Then we went to the smallest pizza hut I have ever gone to, so that was interesting. They had this touch screen drink machine, which was a little weird and I didn’t realise you had to hold the button down, at first.

It was nice hanging out and I got to know a lot about her background and family situation, which was interesting, then we went back to her place to play cards against humanity, only to find out the cards weren’t there, so I scribbled on her white board and for some reason, cleaned her kitchen table, although the uni-let houses are a lot nicer than the student village houses, but then the uni-let houses are more like real/ordinary houses on an ordinary street.

So after running into Mr nice guy outside my house, I came home to find out that I have been sending my post to house 50, instead of my house – oops! But they were nice about it and sent me a message saying so, so I’m probably going to go over tomorrow afternoon and grab it, but I’m hoping everything turned up at once, because I ordered 3 things and they were all meant to arrive today, so at least one has obviously. But I know which one diffidently has because they sent me delivery confirmation.

Quote/saying of the day: It’s so hard to forget pain, but it’s even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace. – Chuck Palahniuk

Wolf whistling at shadows, before squealing with joy over the ordinary…

Right now, today is a best dam day of my life. Alright I might not think so tomorrow, but right now I’m super happy, like squealing sort of happy. The kind of happy that makes people think you’re a little off your rocker. Such as if someone was walking down the street and found out they had just won the lottery and right there in the street they stopped and just started squealing and screaming with delight, that sort of off your rocker happy. But like I said tomorrow this will probably be less than squeal happiness. So mother nature decided to pay me a visit.

So I’ve been feeling a little down since I went on a university essentials shopping spree this morning, with the father, because that way I don’t have to pay and I need to save every penny. And I was just thinking, I haven’t really been eating properly lately, well sort of – I’ll get to that later – so I thought that I was just tired, but then I’m thinking and I like I know this feeling. So I check like a good girl does and hey ho mother nature is waving back at me, so I’m doing a little dance in my bathroom, while the father yells at me from down stairs, because his girlfriend has made us dinner and so they’re waiting for me to come down, so they can start watching the film – Wolf of Wall street – and begin dinner. Alright my family eats in front of the TV most nights, or in front of some sort of screen, but when it’s just me and the father or me, it’s a little depressing sitting at the big dinning table. So I feel like I should put in my take on the Wolf of Wall street, not the best film to watch with your father and his girlfriend, as it’s all sex, drugs, money, to be honest I think that’s what you would be expecting. But I like it, although I was cringing at quite a few bits and the bit where he hit his wife wasn’t nice, but overall, I think it was a good film and I liked the bit with the pen – I totally think I could sell him a pen, but then I’ve seen the film, so I have an unfair advantage.

I also watch The double today. Not quite what I was expecting, but I liked that one as well, it was… different, but in a good way and I like the whole, way they used the lights and the basic oddness of the whole thing, although at first I didn’t really know what was going on, but that sort of added to it. Although if you’re looking for a totally in your face obvious film, this isn’t the one, most diffidently. It also had one of my favourite actors in it and the girl from Alice in Wonderland – the modern version, which is really Alice returning to Wonderland if I’m not mistaken – who I think is a good actress or actor, I’m not sure which one you’re meant to use, because apparently actress is sexist or something. I’m not being sexist when I say actress that’s just the way people have referred to female actors around me for the majority of my life, so I suppose it’s habit – just saying.

Right so last night we had a little goodbye/birthday party of my friend, since it was one of my friend birthdays recently and the other one is leaving tomorrow to London. So we went to this all you can eat Chinese buffet place and I showed off my prowess with the chopsticks – honest I didn’t know I could use them so well, I only dropped one spring roll the entire meal. So I thought I wasn’t really going to eat very much, because like I said I’ve been having ‘problems’ eating recently, it’s not that I’m not hungry, it’s more like I’m hungry until I start eating, when I’m no longer hungry and I feel full almost instantly, when actually I’m not. But any ways I went a filled my plate with the many delicious looking Chinese style foods up for offer, thinking all the while, I really shouldn’t take this much, but I do want to get my moneys worth. But in the end I ate everything plus desert and then cupcakes later. I’m thinking I’ve been having problems because I’ve been too in my own head sort of thing and the butterflies that have taken up residence in my stomach maybe proof of that.

So any ways after the meal – when my friend did a very bad job of hiding the cupcakes, by covering them with her boyfriend’s jumper and then stuffing them under the table for everyone to see – we headed for the river. A couple of us had made plans to meet up with another friend by the river, so we went for a quick alcohol shop and I got this bright pink, strawberries and cream stuff, that was delicious yet disgusting at the same time. So being me, I got slightly drunk and then decided to got for a walk around the park, with my other slightly more drunk friend and recount the events of last Saturday/Sunday to her, which she took as an opportunity to rant about guys and how she’s now more into guys than girls, which I have a hard time believing, because not long later she wanted to go look for guys to make out with. But after arriving back with the other, I wiped out the shisha and it ended up being passed around the group, as everyone wanted to try it and I think it was a bit too much of a hit, as it probably spent more time in my friends mouth than in mine, but hey ho, sharing is caring and all that jazz. Although it was a early evening, because people had to go to work the next day, so while some people went to move cars around, me and the slightly more drunk friend took and scenic root, which including having a weird wolf whistling ‘conversation’ with what I’m guessing was a group of guys – they were standing quite far off and in the dark under a tree and without my glasses I can’t see too much too well, when it’s far off. Thinking now if we hadn’t been with a couple of people then my friend probably would have dragged me over to them.

But I got home safe and sound, after being hugged within an inch of my life by my friends, who I might not been seeing for a very long time now. Although one of them is trying to convince me to go to London for Halloween, which would be really fun, but I have a feeling I might not be able to afford it and we’re meant to be having a Christmas party, because everyone is back then, which would be fun.

I’ve been trying to sort of sort out things for starting university today, there’s this whole online registrations thing, which I didn’t know about until a little while ago and then I somehow lost my NI number, so I had to find that, before I could complete it and then I got really confused when I was looking through what I thought was my emails, but it wasn’t. The format is new to me, so it’s a little – or a lot – confusing, but I guess I’ll get the hang of it in time, I’ve got 3 years or something. I’ve also been emailing my buddy, so I might know at least one person when I get there and he does the same course as me, so I might try and meet with him before going to the first session, so that I won’t be getting lost by myself, because I can see myself getting completely and utterly lost and confused and what not.

Quote/saying of the day: We waiting, starving for moment of high magic to inspire us, but life is full of common enchantments waiting for our Alchemist’s eyes to notice. – Jacob Nordby.

Alright so this song was in the Wolf of Wall street.

Supportive friends and truth telling

So my friend was really nice today and came into the city with me, to get the morning after pill, but because I waited so long apparently it only has around 60% chance of working. But I suppose I’ll have found out by the end of the week – when mother nature comes to visit – ah for now we’ll be playing the waiting game.

So apart from wandering to a bunch of places, before being interviewed and given the pill, we went shopped and I got myself some new shoes, because I really needed some and my friend enlightened me about the guy I had slept with, over a cup of green tea, her being his friend and him being a close friend of her boyfriend, she knew him quite well – which sort of breaks my first rules, don’t get with people my friends know, but I’ve decided no matter what I’m not going to regret this, I don’t want this to become a regret.

It weird because apparently he has girls falling all over him, but he’s picky, or at least she seems to think he is, so ever so and so, she would mutter ‘I can’t believe you did it with him’ or something to that effect, even though she now wants us to get together, but I blatantly refused. I’m going away to university and I really don’t want to do the long distance thing. I’m not the sort of person who could make that work, maybe one day, but not now and I think he feels the same way about it, either that or I sort of stomped that idea out, when I told him we would never meet again, which is probably true, although my friend is trying to change that. Maybe if certain things were different, but things are the way they are, so hey ho life goes on and all that jazz.

I think I sort of annoyed her a little though, because I kept giggling when I remembered things and I wouldn’t enlighten her, but to be honest I think she won’t have thanked me for enlightening her, since she knows him and all that jazz.

I’m going back into the city again tomorrow for a few hours, before meeting up with some girlfriends and going to see that new film ‘If I stay’. I’m hoping it’s good, because I think it could go either way.

Then their all coming back to mine and we’re probably just going to sit around and watch films and chit chat and all that girly stuff.

I was trying to cover my love bites with make up this morning, but they’re so dark that it doesn’t work and since I don’t really wear concealer and foundation and all that, the stuff I have it’s exactly expensive and amazingly good, so in the end I just left them and dealt with the looks that some people gave me. Although a couple older women did glare at me in a nasty way, I think the overall reaction was ‘look away’ or ‘stare’ and since I like to wear tops with writing on them, I’m used to people looking at me, since they’re usually trying to work out what my top says, which was a little unnerving at first, but I got used to it. I’m not going to change my style, just because of that.

Quote/saying of the day: If you smile while no one is around you really mean it. -Unknown

When I was really little, my mother told me you should always smile at babies, because it teaches them to smile. It sort of sounds silly and all that jazz, but whenever a baby looks at me, I still smile, just in case.