To become a cloud chaser with Oh…

So branching back to my old vaping ways, by gaining some new knowledge and a little trip out with the friends, just another average day for a university student… Continue reading

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Explaining ratio, before Chappie

So yesterday I went to see that new film Chappie. I was meant to go with a bunch of people, but it ended up just being me and my friend, but it was still a good time and I cashed the check my grandma send me – so practical as well.

But yeah any ways the film was really good, although my friend brought into question the whole, is Chappie really alive thing, because he did philosophy A-level and apparently one of the definitions of alive is that the thing has to dispel waste and what not, although wouldn’t that sort of make cars alive? But any ways it was a good film, really quite more emotional than I thought it was going to be. Although there were some points where I got a little annoyed with it, due to it being unrealistic, but they were quite so small that they didn’t ruin the film.

AI seems to be quite a big thing these days, as I’ve been seeing quite a few films about it, was there some break throw in science that I haven’t heard about, or is this just another passing phrase, like vampires and zombies and whatever else.

I personally would like to believe in the possibility of AI’s, but who know if they’ll be perfected in the lifetime – if they haven’t been already…

So it’s one of my friends birthdays today, so I’ll be heading over to her place to help her celebrate in the evening, which will be nice.

Yesterday I tried to explain the difference between fashion and style to me friend, but like a stereotypical male he didn’t really get it at all. Honestly I think sometimes fashion is just people reading others and then trying to sell them things they don’t need, but still want. Not that I don’t love it or anything, despite all that. But I do believe there is a grand difference between fashion and style, although a lot of people would probably disagree with me, but there probably brand people. Honestly I don’t really give two shakes of a lambs tail – I wonder where that saying originated – about brands, sure you’re probably going to get better quality from a brand name than from some high street shops, perhaps not all though.

Any ways I went on to explain my observation of how the difference in a woman’s torso to leg ratio changes her cuteness of elegance. The way I’ve work it out to be – generally – long torso, short legs is cute and long legs short torso is elegant, now as far as I can tell this is universal to all cultures, but perhaps doesn’t always happen in all women, to say that I would have to meet every single woman in the world and I’m not willing to go that far, to prove my theory, but generally – as far as I can tell – it’s true, although apparently most women are about half and half on the leg torso ratio, so of course that’s where the clothes women wear come in to either give them longer looking torsos or legs, to make them look elegant or cute, dependent. I mean last year I was going for a more cute look, so I tried to lengthen my torso more and now I’m kind of not sure which way I want to go – although I have yet to identify what equal leg torso ratio is.

The devil was an angel once…

Alright so the day has come and I know the night is young and everything, but let’s just say for the sake of it ‘and gone’.

So today wasn’t the best birthday I’ve ever had, but I won’t say it was the worst. My brother and his girlfriend sent me a nice big bag, although it was a little shiny for me – I’m not super into wearing shiny things – but it was really nice and they sent me some DKNY body lotion and perfume and some quick drying nail polish in some really nice colour, which I might experiment with this weekend or perhaps tomorrow. I made my cupcakes, although I had to go borrow an egg from a friend, because I didn’t get the ones I ordered this week.

I also got some money from my grandma in a card, which means I’m going to have to go to the bank in the next couple of weeks, because it was a cheque. A I got a card from my house mates, which they all signed, which was nice, although I’m pretty sure only one of them would have none it was my birthday, if I wasn’t so bad at getting up in the morning recently and they saw my mail.

I was going to hide my birthday from the world – sort of thing – but I thought better of it and to just let this day pass slightly unmarked, with no big celebrate or anything like that, although the house mate that gave me the card offer to go out with me, but I just don’t really feel like it. I’m not in the mood I suppose.

But I had an alright day, pretty normal and all that jazz. Although I finally got round to watching Horns, which was an alright film, OK it wasn’t the masterpiece of the century, but it wasn’t horrible, rather on the religious side, but what were people expecting from it really.

Hand over the pancakes or else…

So it’s pancake day!

Any you know what that means, tomorrow is Ash Wednesday and lent begins, not that I partake in lent or anything, but for those who do, today is a ‘big day’ – I suppose.

So here’s a little history about pancake day or Shrove Tuesday:

‘Shroving’ was a custom in which children sang or recited poetry in exchange for food or money. ‘Lent Crocking’ was one of the many customs of the day when children would pass from house to house asking for pancakes. If they weren’t given any broken crockery would be thrown at the door! Other customs and superstitions included the belief that the first three pancakes cooked were sacred. Each would be marked with a cross, then sprinkled with salt to ward off evil spirits, then set aside.

Unfortunately this year I couldn’t make my pancakes from scratch like usual, so me and my friend went a got some pancake mix and made that instead, but the pancakes where still good, although I think whisking the mix might have been a bad idea, because they had a lot of air in them when cooking.

Today has been quite a full day, well the afternoon has been, with my usual lectures and seminars, shopping for food and going to see that new film Kingsman.

I went with one of my films and it think it might become something of a regular thing, as we both like similar films and all that jazz. It’s always nice to have someone to go to the cinema with. The film itself. Well it was pretty good I think, alright there were a couple things that I could critic about it, but there so small that I’m just not going to bother and Samuel Jacksons’ voice, that gave me a little surprise when I heard it, but as per usual he was good. There was quite a few good actors in this film, so that made me think it was going to be alright when I was watching the trailer and worth seeing on the big screen and a lot of people seemed to agree with me, as the cinema was packed, I mean my friend got the last regular seat in the place. I honest did think it was going to be that popular, or I would have waited to go see it or turned up earlier or something, but it was all good and a good watch and a nice time.

Quotes/sayings of the day: There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self. – Ernest Hemingway

Manners maketh man – William Horman

If only Christmas was sooner…

So it’s been a while since the last time I posted, I did mean to post, after I got back from the Mockingjay premier, but every things been a little hectic, as the work has been piling up, as the Christmas holidays draw near – I’m so looking forward to the holidays!

The premier was horrible, but fantastic, as I got to see Jennifer and everyone and even Dan – from Dan is not on fire – and Phil turned up. It was horrible, because unfortunately the people behind me, as I managed to get a spot at the front – yay – spent the entire time – even before people started to arrive – pushing me, so at one point me feet were in one place and then my head in another and I couldn’t stand up straight, because of this German girl who had pushed in, However I did get autographs from all the main people, although because I’m quite short and was being pushed around, I didn’t get very good pictures, as people kept putting their books and what not in the way. Me and my friends also got the posters off of the barrier that we where ‘standing’ against.

Overall I’m glad I went, but I don’t think I’ll be going to the Mockingjay part 2 premier next year – can’t believe we have to wait another year to watch the next part.

So yesterday me and my friends took a trip to Poole or rather back to Poole, as I sort of live in Poole, but I had to get a bus into Bournemouth and then another into Poole to go to the cinema to see Mockingjay, sure there are cinemas in Bournemouth, but we had these free ticket things for the cinema in Poole, so waste not want not and all that jazz.

It was a great film and not half as slow as everyone kept telling me it was, I mean my brother told me the book was really slow, but the film wasn’t. However about 5-10 minutes into the film we got evacuated from the building and out into the rain, which was just heaps of fun – not.

And at one point during the film this girl started to either laugh or hysterically cry, I’m honestly not sure which, I mean if she was crying I suppose it was understandable, it was the nasty bit with Peter.

But I do love the music from the Hunger Games films.

Well on Friday I’ll be off to Castlepoint to watch the Christmas lights turn on, well at least I think that’s where we’re going and then there’ll only be 2 weeks left until I’m off home again – yay. Although next week I’m got my house inspection and they’ve given us a list of things to clean, but since it’s not till next week I don’t think I’m going to put my name next anything yet, although I might put myself done for the bin, as it seems that only me and the other girl in the house actually ever take them out. I’m interested to see what the guy downstairs says he does, because at the moment I don’t think he does anything, I did mop the kitchen the other day and I clean the microwave after myself or if I notice it’s dirty when I’m going to use it and sometimes wipe the over top, although I must admit I haven’t cleaned the bathrooms at all yet, although I’m not sure who has, because sometimes I will go in there and see or rather smell that someone has done some cleaning in there. So I’m going  to wait a little and see what other’s put there name down for, although as soon as someone does I might just do it as well, as I think I might go for the bins, because I already do them and cleaning the floor in the kitchen/living room. I can’t remember how many things there were, but I think 2-3 each if about even or something like that and we all have to do our own rooms and all that jazz, but I’ll think about that more Tuesday-Wednesday, as I have those days off next week, so I can sort everything out then, so the house is lovely and clean. But at least this week I know that they are coming and when, so I can do some washing and not be on the edge of my seat about it and all that jazz, speaking of which I might do some today. Although I’ve got this online focus group to do, but the rest of the members aren’t doing anything so far and I’ve not got the questions so I can’t really start it up for anything, so I’m waiting around for the person with the questions to do something and get the ball rolling a little bit, since we’re meant to have done it by Friday and to have at least started by today – oh well.

So recently I’ve been a little hooked on this book series; The house of night. It’s about vampire and the main character is this unusual fledgling vampire. I’m on the second book of the series, and have put the third one on my Christmas list, yes I have a list, although I just put everything down and don’t expect to get most of it, although it’s mainly books. Such as this one that one of my pals – they’re peers who give us a ‘lesson’ each fortnight or so – was talking about in our last pal session; The Wisdom of Psychopaths by Kevin Dutton, since I’m interesting in psychopaths and sociopaths and the like, I thought it would be an interesting read – I hope. My friend got me this book on the brain; the private life of the brain and I haven’t really been able to get into it, but maybe that was because I wasn’t really in a factual mood, more a fiction one, as I’m all about facts with my coursework, so a bit of fiction is nice.

Quote/saying of the day: The psychopaths are always around. In calm times we study them, but in times of upheaval, they rule over us. – Ernst Kretschmer

Losing logic in the waiting game…

So I went out with the girls yesterday and saw that film ‘If I stay’, which I think was quite good, although all my friends seem to think that there should have been a different – long – ending, but I’m on the fence about that. The one it has leaves to the imagination a little, which is nice, rather than having everything spelt out for you.

After hanging around the city a little, doing a little shopping for university, we headed back to mine, to meet another friend. But by the time we settle down to watch films and drink, I was exhausted, I’m not sure why, maybe because I had my appointment with my counsellor and it was quite an emotional one – since she was really digging around in the nitty gritty stuff and I told her about my weekend – or maybe because I’m all anxious about the fact that mother nature has yet come to say ‘hello’, although I’m trying not to think about that, at least until the end of the week, then I think it’s alright to freak out and all that jazz, but I’m hoping I’m just stressing over nothing. If not that I’m going to have to tell the father and go see the doctor, which I’m sure will just be bags of fun, I don’t know if I’ll tell the guy though, it’s not like I would keep it, so I don’t think I really have to, although he might end up hearing it through my friend, because I’ll probably end up telling her – you know us girls we tell each other everything, well nearly everything.

So to keep my mind off the topic, I might start doing some packing today, although I’m not to sure where to start, maybe with my clothing, but every time I think about packing my clothes, I go out or something an end up taking my my clothes out to decide what I’m going to wear, so the packing just doesn’t happen, but now I’m thinking I won’t be going out as much next week and although I’ve got some stuff planned for this weekend, I can just not pack the things I think I might wear then and pack other things. I’ve still got to get a couple things, but I think I’ll either get them this weekend or on Monday, so all that’s good.

So recently I realised that I have a strange sort of logical way of doing things. It’s like I don’t want to get hurt or hurt other people, but I don’t want to regret not doing things, since I wouldn’t rather regret doing it, than not doing it. But I seem to be making myself do something that I am regretting, but I don’t know how to fix that, or maybe I don’t know how to fix it without there being an outcome that could hurt me and possibly someone else. But since I have a strange way of seeing nearly all the outcomes – in a way – I know that there is one where both parties could end up not getting hurt, alright there’s quite a few, but right now it seems those couple were one or both of us gets hurt seem to be the thing holding me back, because despite my efforts I have formed an attachment to them, but I have a feeling that comes with the territory.

It’s just a little weird for me, because I don’t usually have such a problem letting go, especially someone who I don’t know that well, so this is all a little new and weird to me, but I thinking that I might just get over it with time, hopefully.

So my new phone came today. I got it free with a new pay monthly contract, since before I was on pay as you go, but the father insisted that a contract would be better for university, so in the end I got it. So I spent a while moving all my stuff from one phone to the other and then arranging for the number to be changed from the old one to the new one, because I don’t want to have to learn a new number, it took me something like 3 years to learn the one I’ve got now, given I wasn’t really all that bothered about learning it in the first place, but after I had had it for such a long time, I thought it would be a good idea to learn it, so I did. They say it’ll take 24 hours, so I’m not too sure which phone I should be using tomorrow, although I think it’ll be obvious if the number has been moved and all that jazz.

I also pulled a bunch of my clothes out of the closet to pick out outfits for tomorrow, I decide on something for the meal with the friend, but I’m not too sure about what I’m going to wear to go out with the girl in the evening, because I don’t really want to wear any of the dresses I have at the moment, so maybe I’ll see if I can borrow something from someone or something like that, but then again, I might just dress down a little and go with a skirt or shorts instead of the usual dress, we’ll see on the night I suppose.

Quote/saying of the day: A feeling of sadness and longing that is not akin to pain and resembles sorrow only as the mist resembles the rain. -Henry Wadsworth.

So I heard this recently. Interesting have these girls team up, I mean I’m not much of an Ariana Grande fan to be honest, I liked the song she did with Mika, although he looked a little… off in the video. But other than that I don’t think I’ve heard a song by her that I liked. I’m sort of on the fence about this song though, in a way I do like it, but then in a way I don’t. I don’t think I’m going to be rushing to add it to my music collection, but if it’s on the radio or what not I’ll probably listen to it.

I’ve been reading this book lately, well re-reading it. It’s quite an old one really, 1989. But I was feeling nostalgic recently, so I decided to read it. It’s ‘In the Kingdom of the Carpet Dragon’ and is about a princess and her pet dragon and these adventures they have during her birthday celebrations. It’s a children’s book, so I’m getting through it like nothing, but it brings back memories. Even when I know what’s going to happen I still like re-reading books and re-watching film and all that jazz. I always seem to end up watching films twice, even ones that I may not have liked very much, I’m not completely sure why, but yeah I just do.

I’m still not sure which books I’m going to take with me when I go, because I don’t want to take too many, since I don’t really see myself doing very much reading, but I want to have a selection and all that jazz.

Supportive friends and truth telling

So my friend was really nice today and came into the city with me, to get the morning after pill, but because I waited so long apparently it only has around 60% chance of working. But I suppose I’ll have found out by the end of the week – when mother nature comes to visit – ah for now we’ll be playing the waiting game.

So apart from wandering to a bunch of places, before being interviewed and given the pill, we went shopped and I got myself some new shoes, because I really needed some and my friend enlightened me about the guy I had slept with, over a cup of green tea, her being his friend and him being a close friend of her boyfriend, she knew him quite well – which sort of breaks my first rules, don’t get with people my friends know, but I’ve decided no matter what I’m not going to regret this, I don’t want this to become a regret.

It weird because apparently he has girls falling all over him, but he’s picky, or at least she seems to think he is, so ever so and so, she would mutter ‘I can’t believe you did it with him’ or something to that effect, even though she now wants us to get together, but I blatantly refused. I’m going away to university and I really don’t want to do the long distance thing. I’m not the sort of person who could make that work, maybe one day, but not now and I think he feels the same way about it, either that or I sort of stomped that idea out, when I told him we would never meet again, which is probably true, although my friend is trying to change that. Maybe if certain things were different, but things are the way they are, so hey ho life goes on and all that jazz.

I think I sort of annoyed her a little though, because I kept giggling when I remembered things and I wouldn’t enlighten her, but to be honest I think she won’t have thanked me for enlightening her, since she knows him and all that jazz.

I’m going back into the city again tomorrow for a few hours, before meeting up with some girlfriends and going to see that new film ‘If I stay’. I’m hoping it’s good, because I think it could go either way.

Then their all coming back to mine and we’re probably just going to sit around and watch films and chit chat and all that girly stuff.

I was trying to cover my love bites with make up this morning, but they’re so dark that it doesn’t work and since I don’t really wear concealer and foundation and all that, the stuff I have it’s exactly expensive and amazingly good, so in the end I just left them and dealt with the looks that some people gave me. Although a couple older women did glare at me in a nasty way, I think the overall reaction was ‘look away’ or ‘stare’ and since I like to wear tops with writing on them, I’m used to people looking at me, since they’re usually trying to work out what my top says, which was a little unnerving at first, but I got used to it. I’m not going to change my style, just because of that.

Quote/saying of the day: If you smile while no one is around you really mean it. -Unknown

When I was really little, my mother told me you should always smile at babies, because it teaches them to smile. It sort of sounds silly and all that jazz, but whenever a baby looks at me, I still smile, just in case.

Blowing limeade smoke rings for strangers…

So I got my e-shisha pen today, well sort of. I got the actual pen a couple days ago, but I had to wait for the e-liquid to arrive, which it was meant to on Tuesday, but it didn’t come until today, which I was a little pissed about, but hey ho on we go.

So yeah, I had my first taste of the shisha. So I got 3 different flavours and they sent me a free one – Mango, Limeade, Lychee and the free one; Mixed fruit. They smelled delicious, well the Mango one didn’t smell too good, but when I opened the packet, the smell just wafted out and was delicious.

I charged my pen the day it came, so it was all ready for use, but because this was my very first time and I didn’t want to mess anything up, I went online and looked up the right way to fill the tube. I had an idea of how to do it, which was due to my common sense and having had filled things before in my life time, but I wanted to get it right. So I found a video and watched that, before putting the Limeade flavoured liquid inside. I had a quick look at the ingredients as I did so and there is basically nothing in them, a couple flavouring, some water and that’s basically it, which I think is good, since it’s usually the chemicals that are the things that are bad for you in stuff like this and all that jazz.

I went on to watch a whole bunch of videos about e-shisha and vapour smoking, such as one about different ways to blow smoke rings/ O’s, which I’ve been practising and sort of getting the hang of, although I think I’m best at the one where you tap your cheek, which I have a feeling looks weird and is sort of cheating in comparisons to the others, where it’s all about your mouth and throat and what not.

Any ways at first I couldn’t really taste it and then I realised I had turned it off, because without pressing the button and hearing the sizzle or seeing the smoke come out the top, I have no idea if it’s on or off. So feeling rather stupid I turned it on and gave it a minuet to heat up and then took a drag, then I could taste it and the Limeade tasted as good as it smelled. I was also really surprised about how little you have to put in the tube to fill it, I think I put 5 drops in and that nearly half filled the thing, but then I could just be putting really abnormally large drops in or something – got nothing to compare to though, so I have no idea. But after taking a few drags, I realised there was a problem, I wanted to try all the flavours, but first I would have finish off the one inside and I was pretty sure there was going to be a bit of it felt in the bottom, so I went hunting for ways to clean my pen.

There was a whole bunch of videos on the subject, but they all included taking the bottom off the tube and I just couldn’t get mine off, so now I’m thinking I might have to buy a new tube pretty soon, because this ones going to get dirty quick.

These bedazzled ones are cute, I’ve just got a plain blue one, like the one on the end.

So in other news, I’ve been invited to a stoner party tomorrow, well I say party but I think get together is a better word. I think I’ve met everyone who is going, but I’m pretty sure that was at a party where I was gloriously drunk, so I don’t really remember them. But the two other girls who are going I’m friends with and they’ll probably not be smoking, so we’re getting booze and are going to drink the night away or something to that effect.

So the father got me a 2012 Olympics hoody, with retail team written across the back and to be honest I’m not too sure what the retail team is – do they take care of the hoodies and retail stuff or something. But he said he couldn’t find one with and actual Olympic contender team on the back, so retail team it was. But it’s really nice and big and warm, so who cares – right?

I had intended to do a workout today, as I’m trying to get back into doing them, because some of my fat has come back – alright a lot of it and it’s very sad – but I haven’t really been doing too well, today I was just to ‘fascinated’ by my new shisha, so I didn’t really get around to doing any and now I’m thinking it’s a bit late and I’ll just do one tomorrow and all that jazz. Plus I’ve got until four thirty free tomorrow, as that’s when I’ve got to get my bus to meet a friend to go buy some boozes for the party, then meeting some other people, for a lift to the actual party – I keep refer to it as a party, just makes things easier.

Quotes/sayings of the day: Bad decisions make good stories – Unknown

Appreciate what you have, because it turns into what you had – Unknown

Alright so if you’ve seen the Television show True blood, then you might recognize this song, but if not then you still might recognize the song.

So I haven’t really been up to too much this week, went to a friends place for a Merlin drinking night, which at first was drinking when certain things happened or were said, but that sort of stopped half way through the second or third episode and then we just stopped watching all together and chit chatted, as usual, which was nice, since it could have been the last time I saw a couple of them, before they headed off to go to university and although we’re now trying to plan to do something next week, which is their last  week here, although I’ve got to get packing, but I think I’ll just go and hope that I don’t end up running around like a headless chicken at the end of the week, I’ve still got to buy some stuff, but not too much and the father has offered to buy all the stationary, so that’s that sorted – yay for vouchers!

Faith or love, with fight or flight

So it seems my year or so of peace, was only going to last that long. It’s a pity because I thought that I could do this and overcome the ‘demons’ of my past. Normal was beginning to feel like an actual thing for me, I mean I was quite ordinary in the sense that I would have liked to have been, but I thought I was getting there, how stupid and delusional that idea seems now. If I was religious I would probably be saying that this is my punishment or something – I mean I was a certain type of religious – but I’m not. To be honest a lot of the religious people I meet scare me, but I’m also fascinated by them. Putting so much faith in the idea of one thing, one high power, which they would do anything for. That’s also the thing that fascinates me about love, but then maybe faith in God and love for another person – or persons – aren’t all that different and maybe that’s just another one of my problems.

Oh dam I’m just whining again, I tend to end up doing that a lot, all bark no bite. But then if you pushed me into a corner, I’d bite your throat out if I thought that was the way out. If it’s me or someone else, I think I’d probably most of the time choose me, although I suppose it might change depending on the person, but it’s just biology. Like the other day my friend wanted to find out if people were fight or flight as their ‘natural setting when scared’ she was went around scaring people in one way or another and it seems I’m fight, I almost punched her in the face.

So today was a wet the cold summers day, because yes it’s meant to be summer now, but someone forgot to tell the weather, because it’s still acting like it’s the beginning of spring. It’ll be Easter soon and I can’t wait, because with Easter comes a holiday and with a holiday comes time away from… everything that I don’t want to be around. Although I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to eat Easter eggs, because of my diet and to be honest that sort of the only part of Easter that my family has done in years, but when I was younger we used to celebrate a bit more, and the Grandmother sometimes came over, with the religious side of it, which is one of the reasons why I know that Christ wasn’t born on Christmas day, but let’s not get into that. But then I might just break my diet and gorge on chocolate then go into a sort of dark spiral and stop eating properly for a while, then take the diet back up again, but hey-ho the world has wicked things in it.

So… I went to see that new Noah film over the weekend, which is probably what got me thinking about religion and all that. I was surprised it was a 12A, because there was quite a bit of violence/gore in it. Such as the bit where the men are ripping animals apart and the bit where the girls gets trampled to death and so on and so forth. And I also think it was exactly super accurate, but hey-ho artistic license and all that jazz. It’s not like they said it was going to be the actually bible story, but film based on the story I suppose. Although it did raise a couple of questions about incest, which I would one day like to ask a Christian about, as I’m sure there’s an answer, I just didn’t see it or something like that. Such as the whole Adam and Eve only have 3 sons. I never really thought about it before, but where did all the other people come from? Did God make more people or the 3 sons wives or something? I feel like I’m missing parts of the story. And then there were the fallen angels – I think I should have started this bit with a SPOILER ALERT, but never mind – I always thought they weren’t in the Noah story or the bible well this part. I was under the impression that the fallen were an adaptation or something like that – I feel like that’s not the right word, but I can’t think of anything better, and I trying to be an author, maybe you can understand why I have yet to succeed. But it did have my favourite bit in it. The bit at the end of the story… God’s promise – at least from what I can remember that’s what it is, but maybe I’m wrong and if so sorry about that.

But just so you know exactly what film I’m talking about here’s a trailer:

Quote/saying of the day: Don’t use words too big for the subject. Don’t say infinitely when you mean very; otherwise you’ll have no word left when you want to talk about something really infinite. ― C.S. Lewis